A note of advice for my well meaning White friends and associates. Today is not a day to debate race and police brutality with your friends of color, specifically those that are Black. We may not know Alton Sterling personally, but we know these circumstances and this feeling extremely well. This sense of fear and violation has been implanted in our psyche for centuries. As far back as the slave trade, slave hunters, lynchings, unleashed dogs, burnings, rapes, assaults... We as a people have been afraid to BE.
I live in constant fear... You probably haven't noticed because I work very hard to hide it. I fear for my life, my husbands life, my family in other states, my students... I am most anxiously afraid about the prospect of having black babies. I am scared to be put in the position to lose or explain this type of loss to my babies.
So today, I don't have it in me to teach you, model for you, perform for you. I'm not up for the thrill of a spirited debate. These ain't just words and fun conversations for me. This is a real life that I'm struggling every single day just to live. I do not currently possess the emotional fortitude, nor should you expect me to.
If you want to change the problem, figure out what you can do to fix a culture that allows for the continued murder of black and brown bodies without consequence. Figure out why certain agencies are overrun with individuals with problematic past and ideologies of race. Figure out how you can work to dismantle racism and its perpetuation in dominantly White communities.
Today... While we figure out once again how to love ourselves past fear, pain, and hopelessness... Work on you and yours.
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